Is this what eyes were never meant to see
The end of hope and all it meant to me
How can I find the strength to carry on another day
Without my pride there's nothing left to say
Is this the way my life was meant to be?

Too late for me to say that I was wrong
Perhaps the weak believe that they are strong
I thought that if I tried I'd find a way to earn their trust
Yet all I've known and loved has turned to dust
It seems there was no way I could belong

The fire that burns within your heart
The pain that tears your life apart
The rain that falls from brokn skies
The love I lost beneath the lies

And must I face the truth alone
Is this the end of all I've known
The years I gave the tears I cried
Why dream of love, when love has died

I know one day the story will be told
And in the end the secrets will be sold
And will they look at me and say I should have known the end

Perhaps I did but why should I pretend
I only dreamt of love and growing old

Repeat Chorus
Dick Lee (music)
Stephen Clark (lyrics)

This song totally reflects my thoughts and feelings right now... though it's totally irrelevant to what i'm going to say next unless you know my secrets and my writing style...
I don't cry when i'm sad, but i cry when i am angry... Disappointment and sadness is something I handle in a different way.. I can't even force myself to cry... I just don't know, i guess... People always say i live like a free spirit... i seem to handle things so easily... Perhaps it's just the environment in which i was brought up, i've learnt from all the bizarre situations i been thrown into... I told auntie ellenor about my backgound today while throwing trash and she told me somthing i never really thought about... the things i've experienced has made me become more cautious with my relationships...am i scared?