I have a weird kind of memory... I remember the things only when i don't need it... When i need it, i simply don't remember... yet i also have a photographic memory... I can remember how things look like based on an image i remember... I remember the words said, the sounds and the people around... the environment... I remember the first day of secondary school, the first day of work... the things that certain people said... But that is not what hurts...
I remember the promises some people made, and committed myself, it turns out one-sided... I get disappointed...
What hurts is that i can remember the things people have done and said to me that hurt, howver subtle it may be... I want to forget, yet i can't... even when the image gets fuzzy, it is still there, along with the sounds, the things i thought... I may have gotten over the hurt, but like a scar, it will always be there, i can't let go...