Someone told me something that hit me hard... the more i am nonchalant about something, the more emotions/serious i am about the subject... Gosh, that seems to be true... I have bled... It's a known fact among my friends that i never cry when i'm sad, but when i'm angry... so if i am really hurt, i shrug it off with a smile... Wow, i am a step closer to self-actualisation, whatever that means... anyway, people always say i'm strong, but in truth, i'm not... i'm a hermit crab who has managed to find a pretty hard shell to hide in... It's hard for me to really get mad, just pissed that i get over after bitching... but i get hurt pretty often, and i don't know how to express it...

Like if i get ignored by someone i really 'zhong shi' (see as important), i hurt... i'll just do what i can to help you do what you want... I also hurt when people don't tell me i've offended them and treat me coldly all of a sudden... tell me and i'll apologise and do something about it... Another thing that bothers me is that i don't get equal treatment and often get forgotten... Yes, it's happened lots of times, at school, at work and at home... At home i don't mind so much cuz i'd rather be left to do my own thing... but outside, friends are the only people i can rely on...

Oh well... Here's something a little more light hearted...

You Will Die at Age 76

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live... And how you'll die as well.

Ok... so death is not really something light-hearted...
Geezus... Can't i die a little earlier? I just hope i've found what i've wanted by then *hint hint*...