In an attempt to spring clean my rubbish dump of a bedroom, i found lots of things i forgot even existed... some that i didn't even want to remember that they existed... In particular, pictures and photos... the ones of me when i was in primary 5 were a hoot... i was in japan at that time with schoolmates... goodness! i was so skinny! but i was really dark-skinned, and thick hair and specs... although i'm still dark now (much fairer though)... the hair is better and i wear contacts...
Then there are those of strange experiences, things that didn't seem like it happened, yet the photos proved that they did... the subjects of the pictures hardly appear in my life now... partly cuz i try to avoid being within 2 metres radius of them... but we still meet now and then.. and talk at length like we didn't know each other...
Oh and i found my japanese school nametag too... with my japanese name and all... it's so cute...

you know, i tend to think of the kind of relationships i have with people and why they turn out to be such... i couldn't help but think when my sister and mother were talking about guys and getting married and stuff... i actually have a lot of guys in my life... some of whom i have playful ambiguous relationships with... but the guys come nowhere close to someone that i would be attracted to... Particularly one whom i'm on pretty good terms with...

one is so self-absorbed, thinking that he is sacrificing a lot for others at work, but has he ever thought that the sacrifice may be one-sided? He thinks that he is the best at everything, even wanting to override his superiors... while he may be sufficiently competent, he hasn't seen enough of the world... and the way he behaves (needing people to counsel him and recognise whatever he's done) clearly reflects his immaturity and insecurities... He can really get on my nerves sometimes... cuz he always calls me to complain... people might recognise who this person is... but i don't care cuz while he is still a friend, friend have stuff that they don't like too and this is just one of them...

Oh well... getting that off my chest felt good...